Thursday was a most hectic day. was up all night for jury duty and then going to the coast. I had a very good time. one thing was missing... and well I guess I wouldn't need anything else if It was with me. wanted to write more but my mind grows weary. I guess this is what I get for staying up all night.

Confusion. <3?

Photo by yours truly.

I think about it a lot. It comes up everytime i have time to think. It's rather strange to me. I'm always trying to make sense of it. I know whats happening but I'm still really unsure about everything yet...im completely sure. what the hell. Everything can be right where it belongs then totally out of line the next morning. gah! <3

This last week I really had no clue what had come over me. I still don't but I'm better now. Outside looking up at the stars, just imagining each one is a huge ball of fire burning at millions of degrees Makes you realize everything around you is amazing. Other things happened in my mind but I don't think I'll talk about those thoughts...At least now.


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I did not take this but its amazing. Seems like the edge of the world.

end of the line?

seems like iv realized that self image is really pointless. being "Cool" is pointless. so whats left? arg. my mind has backed itself into a corner or something. I don't really know what to think anymore. It's always in the back of my head now that none of this is really going to matter in the end. I demand meaning. I think im going to run into the woods and fend for myself. at least there would be a challenge and maybe i would realize what I really hold for value in life.